I'm just rambling

What is our would coming to, I had outpatient surgery yesterday in hopes that the procedure would alleviate my pain...anyways: got into a conversation with my nurse Jill about how our world and the people in it have gone crazy, this madness is everywhere, The hate and the killing and people (children included) just spewing hate from their mouths and not being responsible for what they do and say.

 It saddens me that as I get older the way of life has become More More More or I want I want I want but none are will to work for it, it's become a society of "you owe me" and if you don't give it to me I will take it and your life as well; and the killing, robbing, raping and just carnage continues every single day you read about it in the paper or see it on the news...We have lost our way folks and the road back is loaded with land mines and bombs.
I want to go home, I want to feel love again and to be loved again, I miss having a purpose and I really miss dreams, I want to look forward to something special and be see as a pretty woman again...I want to love again...not just between a man and a woman but between friends and children and grandchildren; someone who was close to me once said to me that they would destroy me; see to it I had no husband, friends or children...She was right and I allowed her to do it...She was my Daughter!
As I sit here feeling sorry for myself ( yep that is what I am doing) I realize that I don't really have anyone anymore; I'm not happy and I haven't been for a long time.